And i decided to quit

Next Day

I woke up at around 4.30 am . I had never woken up so early in my entire life. But what made me left my bed so early on that day ..i don’t know. I fumbled my ING bag and checked the cheque and saw the figure of 10 lac . I came into the balcony. There was dark silent all around . Bangalore city was sleeping. Some dogs started barking without any reason and I was staring at them. I was not feeling sleepy .Glimpses of the incident were flashing back into my memory. I knew that every time luck had favoured me whenever I was at the brink (whether it was campus placement in B.tech or In MBA , I was selected in the last company ) but I had never thought of the doctor’s call .

It feels good among friends when we talk about any girl and claim that we can do everything. But most of us know the reality. We know that there are only few kind of boys who can go to that level and I was not one of them and never wanted to be like them. Whatever people say about me but somewhere I was happy. I used to love talking about the hot girls but those girls look good at a distance . People can call it double standard but this is what I am.

But that day I was ready to sacrifice all of this. Some where I was not ready to compromise with my job. I knew that God would not come always to help me. There would be pressure . My ASM would always ask for investment. So is this the way I would generate investment? Then what would be the difference between me and a prostitute. I would become a legalized prostitute. A sense of disrespect suddenly shook my identity. I knew I had to take a hard step.

I called my father at around 7 and I was ready for many questions . Why do u want to leave such a lucrative job.. how will u get a new job in recession … it is better to have a new job then leave the job .. and bla..bla..well finally I called my father and told him straight that I wanted to leave my job as I was not happy with my job. I didn’t have any other job in my hand and I wanted to do preparation for PO exams. He didn’t say anything for a minute then he asked where i wanted to do preparation for PO exam ,whether i would go to Delhi or i would be at Bharatpur . I was surprised to learn that he didn’t ask me any single question and that is why I love my parents because they believe in me and the do respect my decision . I booked my train ticket for the next from Bangalore to Mathura .( this time Sleeper ..of course from Karnataka express) and went to Regional office . I handed over the 10lac Rs cheque to ASM with my resignation letter. First he was shocked to hear about it then he asked me where I had got another job. I put it simply that I wanted to prepare for PO exam but I could figure it out that he was not very much convinced and even tried to convince me that I am a good sales person and very few people are able to get 10 lac rs investment . But this is only me who know how I got that cheque.

Well .. I called all my friends and told them that I had made my mind to leave ING. Some were happy with my decision , some were not . But I had already taken the decision .

Next day I reached the Bangalore railways station and took my berth . I was jobless and wishing that no one should ask me about my job . My seat was in RAC and had to share my seat with a boy . He was basically from Mangalore and going to Delhi . He started a causal conversation and finally he asked me that question of which I didn’t have the answer and I told him straight that I am preparing for Po exams . Then I asked about his profession . He responded in a very professional way …
“I AM JOINING ICICI BANK AS A RELATIONSHIP MANAGER “ 

Well…When one story ends ..another one begins….

Last words:

After four months, I have three job offers in PSU bank s and I know that now I wouldn’t be required to compromise with my values (a lot of thank to my father ) .what is more is that somewhere after 15 years down the line these four months wont matter at all but if I had stayed back in Bangalore as a relationship manager , my life would have been changed and I would not be able to ask only once question to my kid that why he is coming so late at 2’o clock In the night with a beer in his hand …completely slouched

Thank you…….

Part-15, Pleasure is completely mine

Well… today I am going to write something about which I have never told to anyone and I never wanted to write about it but without it my story would not have been completed.

I called that lady at 7 in the evening and communicated her that I would reach her apartment by 8. I told Nilesh that I would stay at chinmoy’s apartment. I started my bike and headed towards her apartment . Through out my journey I was thinking about my decision . is it worth to compromise with your valur for your job? Consequence of losing the job was scaring me as some of my batch mate were jobless so I knew how hard it was to get a job as recession was on and that too so lucrative job. I convinced my mind hard that it is a matter of one night only and my job would be secured but my heart was not ready to accept . In this dilemma when I reached the apartment I don’t know. I asked security guard that I had a appointment with the lady , he called her no and allowed me to enter.

I took all the application forms and reached her apartment, ringed the bell and waited for some moments . A servant opened the door and asked me to sit . After some time that lady came into the room in a very decent dress .I thought she would simply fill the application forms but all my happy feeling got disappeared ,when she sat near to me ( so called in my intimate zone ) and approached towards me.She whispered in my ear whether I was ready for it and said that she would be back in 10 min.

I was alone in the room for 10 min.. emotionless and feeling less. just wanted to finished off all the thing as soon as possible .. didn’t want to think anything . I Was completely dull at that moment.

Well.. after some time she came into the room . I don’t want to write about the details as I m not writing a porn story but yes, she was wearing a reveling dress. She sat near to me and some kind of peculiar smell was coming out of her body. She asked me whether I would have vodka or whisky . I asked for whisky as I had heard that whisky effects faster than Vodka and I didn’t want to be in my consciousness. I had 4-5 glasses of whisky ..Cause I wanted to forget that moment . But all my myth went wrong when even after having 5 glasses of whisky .. I was conscious . I knew what was happening around. Who says that drink makes u forget everything . I was aware of each and everything .When she had enough amount of drink , she came near to me and started unbuttoning my shirt –button . don’t know why but tears started rolling out from my eyes. But she was busy with her act. She didn’t notice it.

I took my cell –phone out from my pocket as I wanted to keep it silence mode because my father used to call me around 8’o clock and today,I just wanted to avoid this call. But as I picked up the cell phone .. I received a call . I knew it was my father’s call and was about to cancel it . But it was from the Doctor( London based ). I told that lady that it was an urgent call and I had to pick –up , I didn’t wait for her respond . I picked up the call and said “Hi” to the doctor. Doctor told me that he was going dubai on the next day and he wanted to make an investment of rs 10 lac today and asked me if it was possible for me to come down to his home today. It was the happiest moment of my life and I told that I was reaching his home in half an hour and I told that lady that I had to leave , without looking back to her I came out from her apartment.

I took my bike and headed towards the doctor’s home. I don’t know why but I felt like vomiting after 10 min. I stopped my bike and Vomited like anything. I was not feeling normal . I cried bitterly I was feeling like a pimp . Some people stopped near me and asked me if I needed any help but I didn’t say anything . .. don’t know how long I cried but when I felt normal , I approached to a shop and asked for a water bottle . I washed my eyes and face and reached the Doctor’s home. As soon as Doctor saw my red eyes he said “ sorry to disturb you “ . But I responded in a amiable way “ Sir, Pleasure is completely mine “

you do make compromises

Like any other day I reached to my branch sharp at 10 .I was aware of the fact that i should have been at 9.30 but how does it matter whether I reach by 9.30 or 10, end of the day I was not going to do any business so I myself extended the timing by 30 min. well.. nothing wrong in it as I am a part of Free india and a free indian should have right to decide when he wants to come to his own office . So I just used some of my democratic rights . Well.. I parked my Bike and entered into my branch . Suddenly I got shocked to see my ASM over there ( my Boss ). He was talking to my branch manager , and I was wise enough to know the topic of the discussion ( why business is not happening  ). He looked at me , I looked at him . I didn’t speak anything and tried to search some pages( just wanted to show him ..how busy I was and didn’t have enough time to talk to him ) . He came near to me and I knew the question he was going to ask so I kept the answer ready. Well… he asked very obvious question why I was so late and business was not happening Now I tell you billion dollar worth thing …how to handle these kind of questions. Whenever your boss asks about your negligence on duty ,just give him what he wants . so I did the same . I said that I was having a meeting with one of my client. But meeting needs to have some out come so he asked for the ask outcome .nothing came into my mind as I wanted to avoid the disastrous situation so I told him that the client was ready to invest rs 1 lac in reliance mutual . Now see the good part . you might be thinking that when I didn’t have 1 lac rs in my alms ,how would I able to make the investment . Now generally what happens that ASM asks for the investment and a relationship manager job is to say some arbitrary no., let say 2 lac or 3 lac. It is only end of the month that ASM can realise whether true investment has made or not through MIS because MIS is prepared at the end of the month. So if if an ASM is asking about the investment in the first week of a month then you can say anything and get investment in the rest of the month . This was the only learning I learnt throughout my job . So I was able to convinve my ASM as I used Bram-Astra( who have seen Ramayan knows that Bram-Astra never gets fail but it can be used only one time ). So it also worked for me and I was able to postpone the disaster. But I Knew I had taken the one more tension of getting rs 1 lac’s investment. Me who had not earned the 10k rs investment, how would I ever be able to get 1 lac rs investment. What kind of mess I had got myself into. well it was like Munna Bhai-MBBS story when sanjay datt told the lie that he is a lecture and to prove himself right he had to read all the books . I thought a lot what I should do . Finally like the movie I convinced myself that I had to get an investment of 1 lac. So again I picked up my client’s list and as per my expection I got the same routine answers. I knew I would not be able to get investment by this method.
When nothing works for me , I always think of having tea . So I went to a tea –stall and asked for a tea. But even after having cups of tea I couldn’t find a way so I came to the branch. There I saw a lady ( age would be around 30-34.. fair young lady , north indian ), she was asking for the Balance enquiry . it was told to us that we were supposed to pitch walk-in customers but it was against my reputation as I was a manager. But the consequences of my lie encouraged me to pitch the lady. I approached to that lady and didn’t say that I am a relationship manager but asked why she was there in the branch. She told me that the person on the counter is not helping her and she had been waiting for the last 30 min to get her balance statement . I took her account No and went to the senior relationship manager ( Kya karu.. matlab ke liye to Gadhe ko bhi baap banana padta hai .. my father’s only advise ). I don’t know what mood he was into but he took the account no and gave me the statement as he had his own personnal computer not like me a manager without any desk . well I handed over the account statement to her and I asked for the investment . She looked at me and asked how much invest I want. I said rs1 lac. Ohh god it was like those kind of scene in hindi movie when heroine is in truble ( because her father is sick or his brother got paralysis or whatever) and she needs money . Then villain asks her how much money she needs. And she pretends that she does not understand anything even a child can tell the villain’s intension. I was standing on the same condition. Well nothing was in my hand so I said plainly 2 lac rs investment (when I am going to be sold why should I earn some profit) . She told me that she was interested but she wanted to have more discussion about the investments as branch was over crowded so she suggested me to come over to her own apartment at 8 PM ( don’t know whether it is 8 in the evening or 8 in the night ) and left the premises .
I knew what was going to happen but I was ready for that sacrifice even though my father was not ill , my mother didn’t need money . All my sisters are married and well settled, my brother is earning enough but still I needed some money. what I can do when my situation was not as worse as in hindi movie’s actress , still I needed my job and money .Finally god shown me a way but it was me who had to walk thorugh that way . I called nilesh ( my roommate ) that I was going to chimoy’ room and I would stay there. But it was me only who knew where I was going.